heavy-hearted

i got a call from my dad's sister today. she told me that my dad called his parents this morning, letting them know he has been in jail for the past 6 months and 3 weeks. he was calling to tell them he had just been released. the last time anyone in our family spoke with him was last July. my heart is heavy today. my dad just learned this morning that he is a grandfather. what a wake-up call. it breaks my heart on so many levels. please pray with me that he won't start drinking again. please pray that his time in jail will be a catalyst for change, for growth, for relationships to reemerge and be restored.

Lord, i want to love like you do. i can't love my dad on my own. he is so unlovable. he has hurt me more than words can convey. but he is Your child, Your beloved. You made him and You love him. help me to see him through Your eyes. please continue to heal my wounds, as only You can do. please open my heart and use me to love him through You. he desperately needs to be loved on. please show me how.